:: Bugger ::

Again, my post has been deleted!

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:: My Last Post in This Blog ::

Hi All,

As some of you might know, this blog has been hacked (and I know who the culprit is, but i refuse to squat down to his level). he has made himself as an admin and put me as an author. So there are a lot of restrictions here and there.

Therefore, I am now starting a new blog at faizahj.blogspot.com

Please drop by.

Take care peeps.

:: Why Do U Blog? ::

Why do you blog?

Why do I blog?

Why the hell not?




A recent turn of event had triggered this question in me.. When I was scolded and blamed just because I posted something in my own blog, without even revealing anything at all. Don't I deserve a little "freedom of speech"? Is there only negativity in the blogging world? Don't my opinion and my feeling count for something?

I for one, am a true believer in the invisible realm. First and foremost, I believe in Allah. Can't really see Him with our naked eyes but He's always there. I believe in auras in everyone. Can't see it too but if you try hard enough, you can actually feel it. I believe in tiny strings that we as human being need to live. The connection with our loved ones, friends and family are among the major strings in one's life. People might take it for granted but I truly believe that the more strings we have, the happier we will be.

Blogging to me creates those tiny strings.. I don't know what kind of people do read my blog, let alone enjoy it, but each and every one who reads will somehow be connected to me with those tiny strings.

It's just like a diary isn't it? Instead of keeping it under the bed, we now publish it to the world. I do it because I want to immortalize an important event, pour out whatever's inside without having to hear all the unnecessary advices from people who assume that they know everything. And also because I believe that people around me are mature enough to understand that whatever I write here are merely my very own opinion at that present time and without any intention to humiliate anybody or downgrade anything.

So in conclusion, Why do I blog?

Why do you care in the first place? You never cared before so why start now? And last I check, blogging is still legal in Malaysia. So deal with it!

:: Amazing Feeling ::

I launched the browser with an intention to write about the recent FEI World Endurance Championship held in Terengganu. But then I froze. I don't know where to begin. Should I talk more about the wonderful people that I had the privilege to cross paths with? Or should I begin with the preparation of the event and its grandeur? Should I begin with the initial invitation from Encik Penn? Or should I just sum up everything?

I've decided that I should tell the world that I am feeling amazing, energized, loved and respected because of that event.

I woke up tired like nobody's business but I jumped off bed, feeling excited to go to work. I was smiling all the time I was getting ready. I jumped in the car and drove myself to MRR2 but because of the heavy grinning and sweet daydreaming, I missed the junction to serdang so I had to use the LDP to KL. The traffic was bad as hell but I didn't even feel pissed. I kept on singing in the car. I paid all the tolls open-heartedly, and even tried to initiate small talks with the toll both operator. 1 hour and 45 minutes later, I was still in the car and it felt wonderful.

I was suppose to arrive at my office at 8 but it was 9.05 when I finally parked my car in the office compound. Still I didn't get the rush and anxiety like I usually get when I know that I did something wrong. I opened the door to my department and my GM and head of department was just in front of the door. I didn't feel guilty, not even slightly.. I walked in and shouted "GOOD MORNING EVERYBODY!"

Almost everyone commented on my new tan and that I look very dark now but all I did was grin happily at them.

Gosh! I feel wonderful. The event was great. The people I met inspired me. Most of all, I feel honored to have all the most wonderful people in the world as my friends.

Thank you En Penn for the first class hospitality. (And thank you for the generous gifts and money too!) I will come back next year as an endurance rider of Aeros for PENN Endurance. (ya ya.. I need to train hard for that.. and I will!)

Have a wonderful week everyone!! The world is brighter just because everyone of you is in it!

I love All Of U!!

:: Insomnia Attack ::

Its 3:38am and my eyes are wide awake. I cant sleep! Help!!

Ah well, since i cant sleep anyway, I might as well update all you wonderful people out there about my so-so life..

What should I share this morning? My work? Its been wonderful. The bosses has been extra nice. No more "where the fu*k are you" messages to start off my day. No more stupid office politics and nasty office gossips. The pay is ok and the claim has been amazing! Total freedom in executing my plans and the mates are to die for.. what else should I say? I am ecstatic to go to work every morning. (nothing much to tell when things are going your way i guess..)

Ok now about the book that i'm currently reading.. Its called How To Kill Your Husband (and other handy household hints) by Kathy Lette

Hahaha.. i know.. the title is weird, to say the least, but I find the book very very entertaining. I actually laughed out loud when i was reading it in Pelita just now.. (and no, I don't intend to kill my husband, for those who's assuming that at the moment)

This is my first book by said author, and to be honest, I was intrigued by the title alone. However, I was pleasantly surprised by her humour in telling the story. Its remarkable! Her bluntness and her pacing is pun-tastic!

I started this morning and i managed to read 98 pages while i was enjoying my daily jacuzzi bath at mom's. I occupied the bathroom too long that my dad thought that I had passed out or something in the tub. (if i wasn't interrupted, I might have finished reading it by now.. maybe).

Ok I guess that's it for now. I have a sudden urge to continue my reading..

Take care peeps..

Luv Ya!