:: Bugger ::

Again, my post has been deleted!

If you're looking for faizah a.k.a appai's blog, please go to http://faizahj.blogspot.com

or just click HERE

:: My Last Post in This Blog ::

Hi All,

As some of you might know, this blog has been hacked (and I know who the culprit is, but i refuse to squat down to his level). he has made himself as an admin and put me as an author. So there are a lot of restrictions here and there.

Therefore, I am now starting a new blog at faizahj.blogspot.com

Please drop by.

Take care peeps.

:: Why Do U Blog? ::

Why do you blog?

Why do I blog?

Why the hell not?




A recent turn of event had triggered this question in me.. When I was scolded and blamed just because I posted something in my own blog, without even revealing anything at all. Don't I deserve a little "freedom of speech"? Is there only negativity in the blogging world? Don't my opinion and my feeling count for something?

I for one, am a true believer in the invisible realm. First and foremost, I believe in Allah. Can't really see Him with our naked eyes but He's always there. I believe in auras in everyone. Can't see it too but if you try hard enough, you can actually feel it. I believe in tiny strings that we as human being need to live. The connection with our loved ones, friends and family are among the major strings in one's life. People might take it for granted but I truly believe that the more strings we have, the happier we will be.

Blogging to me creates those tiny strings.. I don't know what kind of people do read my blog, let alone enjoy it, but each and every one who reads will somehow be connected to me with those tiny strings.

It's just like a diary isn't it? Instead of keeping it under the bed, we now publish it to the world. I do it because I want to immortalize an important event, pour out whatever's inside without having to hear all the unnecessary advices from people who assume that they know everything. And also because I believe that people around me are mature enough to understand that whatever I write here are merely my very own opinion at that present time and without any intention to humiliate anybody or downgrade anything.

So in conclusion, Why do I blog?

Why do you care in the first place? You never cared before so why start now? And last I check, blogging is still legal in Malaysia. So deal with it!

:: Amazing Feeling ::

I launched the browser with an intention to write about the recent FEI World Endurance Championship held in Terengganu. But then I froze. I don't know where to begin. Should I talk more about the wonderful people that I had the privilege to cross paths with? Or should I begin with the preparation of the event and its grandeur? Should I begin with the initial invitation from Encik Penn? Or should I just sum up everything?

I've decided that I should tell the world that I am feeling amazing, energized, loved and respected because of that event.

I woke up tired like nobody's business but I jumped off bed, feeling excited to go to work. I was smiling all the time I was getting ready. I jumped in the car and drove myself to MRR2 but because of the heavy grinning and sweet daydreaming, I missed the junction to serdang so I had to use the LDP to KL. The traffic was bad as hell but I didn't even feel pissed. I kept on singing in the car. I paid all the tolls open-heartedly, and even tried to initiate small talks with the toll both operator. 1 hour and 45 minutes later, I was still in the car and it felt wonderful.

I was suppose to arrive at my office at 8 but it was 9.05 when I finally parked my car in the office compound. Still I didn't get the rush and anxiety like I usually get when I know that I did something wrong. I opened the door to my department and my GM and head of department was just in front of the door. I didn't feel guilty, not even slightly.. I walked in and shouted "GOOD MORNING EVERYBODY!"

Almost everyone commented on my new tan and that I look very dark now but all I did was grin happily at them.

Gosh! I feel wonderful. The event was great. The people I met inspired me. Most of all, I feel honored to have all the most wonderful people in the world as my friends.

Thank you En Penn for the first class hospitality. (And thank you for the generous gifts and money too!) I will come back next year as an endurance rider of Aeros for PENN Endurance. (ya ya.. I need to train hard for that.. and I will!)

Have a wonderful week everyone!! The world is brighter just because everyone of you is in it!

I love All Of U!!

:: Insomnia Attack ::

Its 3:38am and my eyes are wide awake. I cant sleep! Help!!

Ah well, since i cant sleep anyway, I might as well update all you wonderful people out there about my so-so life..

What should I share this morning? My work? Its been wonderful. The bosses has been extra nice. No more "where the fu*k are you" messages to start off my day. No more stupid office politics and nasty office gossips. The pay is ok and the claim has been amazing! Total freedom in executing my plans and the mates are to die for.. what else should I say? I am ecstatic to go to work every morning. (nothing much to tell when things are going your way i guess..)

Ok now about the book that i'm currently reading.. Its called How To Kill Your Husband (and other handy household hints) by Kathy Lette

Hahaha.. i know.. the title is weird, to say the least, but I find the book very very entertaining. I actually laughed out loud when i was reading it in Pelita just now.. (and no, I don't intend to kill my husband, for those who's assuming that at the moment)

This is my first book by said author, and to be honest, I was intrigued by the title alone. However, I was pleasantly surprised by her humour in telling the story. Its remarkable! Her bluntness and her pacing is pun-tastic!

I started this morning and i managed to read 98 pages while i was enjoying my daily jacuzzi bath at mom's. I occupied the bathroom too long that my dad thought that I had passed out or something in the tub. (if i wasn't interrupted, I might have finished reading it by now.. maybe).

Ok I guess that's it for now. I have a sudden urge to continue my reading..

Take care peeps..

Luv Ya!

:: An Addiction ::

Hi, My Name is Faizah and I'm a Book Addict!

Seriously! I think I have a problem.. I have the urges to buy books all the time! Kinokuniya, Bookxtream, MPH, Popular, Borders are now my regular destination..

I do love books since forever but I think these urges that I get lately has been annoying!

Why can't I be obsessed with shoes or handbags or food, like normal ladies?

Last week, I read one book everyday.. one book costs me 20 to 50 ringgit.. u do the math.. bole bankrupt oo camni..


Ooo by the way, I just finished reading this book called The last Anniversary by Liane Moriarty. AMAZING!! I love it!! A strong storyline about a mystery in a small island and a few of mixed up love stories to boot. Love It!!

For those who are looking for a new book to read, try this one..

:: Friends ::

"Whoever says Friendship is easy has obviously never had a true friend!"
- Bronwyn Polson

There were times when I spent the night at a girlfriend's house, and the next day she said its ok if i wanted to go home to my family coz she was feeling so much better. So i made my way home. Then the phone rang when I was about to park my car in front of my parents house, she called crying and said that she was feeling down and needed someone to listen to her. I, without hesitation reversed my car and made my way again to he house. and mind you, the distance from my home to hers is more than 50 km.

There were also times when I was woken up at 4 in the morning by a cabin crew friend who had overslept and missed the crew pick up and asked me to send him to the airport. Simply because he didn't want to pay the taxi, who would charge double at that time of the night. Oh and by the way, he was entitled and could claim the taxi fare from the airline company. But he thought it would be too boring sitting alone in the cab from puchong to KLIA. I sprung from my bed and drove my car from bangi to puchong then to klia then back to bangi. And I didn't ask even one cent for the fuel and I even enjoyed our conversation in the car.

There were times when i had to listen to a friend whine and complain and talk about everything under the sun when my heart was actually hurting from events that are happening in my own life. I suppressed everything inside and paid attention to that friend and mentioned nothing about my own grief. I'm good like that, I'm a Gemini.

Last week I slept at 5 am just so i could finish up the handmade farewell gift that i made for my ex office mates. Papers used were especially bought from curve, and before that I ran around KL, and Seremban looking for special wooden cloth pegs to give to them as a note holder. I couldnt seem to find it so i changed my plan and made them a note instead. Each especially done for a particular person, with a personalized message, for each and everyone of them, including the bastard boss.

I would gladly do anything for my friends because secretly deep down I hoped that someone, if not all of my friends would be there for me when I needed them.

Now i know its just wishful thinking.

I'm in the midst of changing jobs, i had a few tragedies, my husband is not at home, I reached out but no one is here.

So much for friendship huh? Whenever I call, its always me who has to come to your place. Its always me who has to follow your schedule of your perfect life. Its always you who always determine where to eat or drink. Whenever you do things thats regarding your family i respected it and understood that family comes first, but when I did something for my family I was scolded? Because I didn't inform you? What the hell? When everyone seemed to be against you, be it in work or relationship, I supported you and blamed everyone else. i kept my honest opinion to myself because all I wanted was for you to feel better & for you to know at least someone is behind you and that you're not alone. But what happened when its my turn?

Enough is enough.

I've had it.

No more stupid sacrifices for people.

My very own happiness and peace is of utmost importance in life right now.

:: Kreativ Blogger Award! ::

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah.. siti nak ucapkan terima kasih pada mak abah.. kepada rakan media.. kepada semua yang menyokong siti.. dan yang penting.. kepada peminat2 siti.. tanpa anda siapalah siti.. dan yang terakhir kepada suami siti dirumah...

wait a minute.. i'm not siti!!!

but still i'm ecstatic! my very first virtual award ever!!! thanks herda for nominating me..

LUV YA!!


ok now my turn to nominate...
1) nad - catatan si kadok
2) nena - a whatever life
3) mukeh - never been my favorite
4) faisal - bad clad in black


congrats!!

take care peeps...

:: Blogging Freedom? ::

Hi Beautiful Peeps!

I was intrigued to find out about about bloggers freedom of speech as of late.

It is because a dear friend of mine almost got into trouble in the workplace because of the stuff he wrote in his blog. (mind you, he didn't mention any personal names, any company's name, nothing... he was just expressing his feelings and frustrations through his blog.)

To me, blogging is good way to express yourself, to let out some steam, to update on 'whats new' in your life. What the hell is wrong with that?

Aren't we all human? Don't we all have our 'down' times? Don't we get frustrated at times? Don't we all need some kind of outlet to get the steam out of our system?

Isn't blogging a better option as oppose to a killing spree?

I for one, am sorry about what happened to that friend. If you ask me, I still think its his right to write about whatever he feels in his personal blog. As long as no specific name or confidential events were mentioned and blown out of proportion..

So to that friend, you are a great writer. Your blog is fun to read and you have great number of followers. Keep on writing and enlightening us with your witty stories. To hell with them! What are they gonna do? Fire you? I don't think so. You are an asset to the company..

So keep on keepin on my dear friend!



Take care peeps..

Thanks for reading...

:: Imagine That ::

:: Why People Are So like That aa? ::

Well, so most of might already know, I am looking for new opportunities, work wise.
Somewhere with people who knows how to motivate.. somewhere with a lot of great perks, somewhere more stable.
Somewhere I can shine & being recognized for trying to shine & make the company proud.
Somewhere with leaders, not bosses.
Somewhere with leaders who don't use vulgar words everyday to get the message across...

In other words, I'm looking for a 'real' job in a 'real' company.

I've been to some interviews & was offered a lot of different kinds of offers. I am so psyched!

However, the "bosses" have a new kind of interest in me as of late. They are extra kind & courteous to me.. They are now showing care & respect towards what I do. They now use the magic words such as 'please' 'may i' 'would you' & 'thank you'.

What the hell? What in Gods name is happening here.

Do they know that I'm planning to leave & therefore decided to change their way so that I won't go?

Why become a different person once I'm ready to pack up and leave?

Wouldn't the world be a better place to live in if everyone is courteous to everyone?

Would it be so bad if we could support each other & just be nice, regardless of your status quo?

:: Tagged by @dr3h ::

The One Word Meme... Here goes..


1.Where is your cell phone?
dunno

2. Your significant other?
smart

3. Your hair?
short

4. Your mother?
sweet

5. Your father?
supportive

6. Your favorite thing?
chocolate

7. Your dream last night?
none

8. Your favorite drink?
tea

9. Your dream/goal?
daycare business

10. The room you're in?
office

11. Your hobby?
reading

12. Your fear?
infertility

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
new zealand

14. What you're not?
lazy

15. Muffins?
chocolate

16. One of your wish list items?
baby

17. Where you grew up?
JB

18. The last thing you did?
breakfast

19. What are you wearing?
kurung

20. Favorite Gadget?
PSP

21. Your pets?
chot

22. Your computer?
dell

23. Your mood?
irritated

24. Missing someone?
yes

25. Your car?
cleaned

26. Something you're not wearing?
a smile

27. Favorite store?
borders

28. Like someone?
nope

29. Your favorite color?
red

30. When is the last time you laughed?
today

31. Last time you cried?
yesterday

:: Fid & Haslam ::

One of my office mates got married on my birthday. As a wedding pressie, I made her a scrapbook frame of his wedding ceremony, nikah nite as well as tunang morning. She seemed to like it..

It gives me maximum satisfaction to see someone happy because of the things i did for them..

So again, congrats Fid and Haslam.. U guys are made made for each other! (cepat2 la dapat anak...)

Enjoy great people!! take care of each other!!

:: Paddington's ::

(this post is purposely done in BM)







Hari jumaat lepas, apa dtg kemaruk aku n nena n linda gi the curve semata mata nak makan pancake for lunch.

Cam biasa, kitorang makan, gossip, gelak like nobody's business.. Food was YUMMYYY!!!

:: My lil Brother's Birthday ::

28th May was my bother, Fauzi's birthday. Fauzi (or ogy, as he is dearly called at home) and I have always celebrated our birthdays together.

I still remember when I was 8 or 9 years old, our dad made us a 4 fold birthday invite with his then very hi tech computer. U know the kind of card where you just select from the template and write whatever you want, then you print it out and the card is created in such a way that u had to fold it into four to create a card. Damn.. I don't know how to explain it.. but I know you got me.

Anyhow, he gave us a bunch of those cards and asked us to distribute it among our friends. Just so happen, our birthday was during a long weekend. (it was a wesak day weekend if I'm not mistaken). So I did just that.. I gave all my invites to all my friends. I was running out of invites by lunch break!

So the day of the party came, all my friends showed up.. my mom had set this one table for the presents. It was over flowing! As we were celebrating, I noticed Ogy was sitting alone, eating his cake.. I looked around, I saw about 2 of his friends at the party. I wondered why rest of his friends didn't show..

So i walked over and asked him, did u invite your classmates? he said, yeah.. i invited 3 (or maybe 4?) but only 2 could make it. I said why? He said, why would they want to come to my birthday party.. So where's the rest of the invites that abah gave you?, I asked. He said, its in my school bag.., he said...I felt so sorry for him that day, that when it was time for us to open our pressies, i gave some of my pressies to him so that he had something to do while i opened mine.

Now he's always been a quite kid. He was so close to his late brother. He looked up to him in everything.. When it comes to buying clothes, Ogy had to ask for his Abg Ngah's approval. Same goes to toys, and in fact, everything..

When his big brother passed away, Ogy seemed lost.. he didn't even know how to pick his clothes at the shop.. When our parents brought us to shop one ramadhan day, my dad said pick anything u want from the shop.. I was running around trying everything until I say Ogy just standing there in the middle of the shop, just staring at a bunch of shirts.. I knew he missed his brother.. I choked. I was trying my best to hold back my tears as i help him pick some shirts. I had to convince him of what's in and what looked good on him.. (I wasn't even sure about boys fashion but I felt that i had to lead him somehow..)

But that was then.. Ogy has grown now. He is now a handsome young man with a gorgeous girlfriend. An engineer in a huge company, an owner of an imported car, a good son to my parents and a great brother to me.

He has always been there for me now. To lend me an ear when I need to let off some steam, to lend me money when i needed to start over after Dubai, to give me some advice on men when I needed em, to support me when I thought that I hit rock bottom, to be a big brother when i needed some reality check.

I love you OGY. I am so blessed to have you as my brother.

So Ogy got me a gorgeous picture frame and a cute card for my birthday, and I made him a scrapbook of his life journey till now. (thanks to Faetz for choosing the pics). I love my pressie and I think he loved his too.. He couldn't wipe his smile off when he was looking at the pics. (my mom whispered to my ears the night I gave ogy the gift, she said, u did good. I think ogy loves it. and i know he's thanking you in his own quiet way.. the scrapbook looks gorgeous.. would you make me one too? haha of course I would mak...) Its my pleasure ogy..

The scrapbook that I made for ogy, its now hanging in his room.

Ogy,
We are all proud of you. Whatever you do, where ever you are, please remember that
WE LOVE YOU.

:: Apai Doraemon ::

Video taken by Mukeh, with Nena's camera, suddenly its magically in youtube!!...

Demitt!! I look fat!

:: Pocketful of Sunshine ::

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.

I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.

Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.

Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

No.

Take me away: A secret place.

A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away, to better days.

Take me away: A hiding place.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.

I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.

Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.

Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

No.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.

I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.

Oh.

Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me.

Do anything you can to control me.

Oh, no.

Take me away: A secret place.A sweet escape:

Take me away.Take me away to better days.

Take me away: A hiding place.

There's a place that I go,

But nobody knows.

Where the rivers flow,

And I call it home.

And there's no more lies.

In the darkness, there's light.

And nobody cries.

There's only butterflies.

Take me away: A secret place.

A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days.

Take me away: A hiding place.

Take me away: A secret place.

A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days.

Take me away: A hiding place.

Take me away: A secret place.

To better days take me away.

Take me away to better days.

Take me away: A hiding place.

The sun is on my side.

Take me for a ride.

I smile up to the sky.

I know I'll be all right.

The sun is on my side.

Take me for a ride.

I smile up to the sky.

I know I'll be all right.

:: Mi Casa :: After Makeover ::

View from outside..

the entrance













living area









abang with cast still intact









my 2nd fav place.. reading area








abang's fav place.. the cyber cafe









my fav place again, the kitchen










again, the kitchen








dining area..












storage area









laundry area














the master bedroom.






So there you go... mi casa, after makeover.


take care peeps! enjoy!

:: Mi Casa :: Before Makeover ::

Okay I know... Its extremely long overdue.. Now here it is..

View from outside

































In support for Ryan Giggs and the great Man U, hence the number 11. hehe.

The living room, the kitchen and the laundry area.

Every one's working so hard... Its a collective effort.. I'm forever grateful..

:: Sharing Is Caring ::

Carnegie Mellon Professor Randy Pausch, who is dying from pancreatic cancer, gave his last lecture at the university Sept. 18, 2007, before a packed McConomy Auditorium.

Amazing! Inspiring! I wish that I have his spirit.

Note To Self: You Are Lucky.. So Stop Complaining

You know, last week I met one of my good friends.. We used to be quite close some time ago. Long story short, She asked me where do I live now. I said, "oh I bought my parent's place. We're living there now". Then she said, OMG! ko dapat jugak dream ko yang tu.. then I thought.. what dream? But I didn't say anything.. I postponed thinking about that coz I wanted to just kept talking to her. Then later that evening, while I was sipping coffee at home, that same remark sprung back into my head. Then suddenly it hits me! We used to list down all of our dreams on a piece of paper. One of the 4 dreams that i listed was:

1) Own the house addressed ~i wrote my present house's address, which i cant publish here.

I was so shocked! I didn't even realize that I've achieved one of my life dreams. then I started thinking about my other dreams. Without me even realizing, I've achieved a few of them.

So moral of the story is, keep on dreaming. put it on paper so that u can see it. Draw it or create it in the computer so that u can visualize it. tell it to people around you so that u can hear it. And after some time, believe u me, it will eventually come true. U don't have to think how its gonna materialize, just know that its going to materialize. Believe me.

By the way, I'm reading his book too, its called LAST LECTURE by RANDY PAUSCH.. amazing stuff! Go and buy it now. Its gonna be useful for you and your future family,whenever u think that life's unfair.

Enjoy Generous people!!

:: Job Anyone? ::

The company that I'm working now is in the look out for a Business manager as well as a female receptionist.

Business Managers are doing marketing and receptionist is self explanatory. Requirement for the receptionist is female, young, always smiling and with positive attitude.

So there you do. For those who are interested, please drop me a comment.

Take care! Tata!

:: Tagged By @dr3h ::

I have been tagged by Herda

8 things I’m passionate about:
1. Family
2. Home deco
3. Books
4. Cooking
5. Money
6. The future
7. Art
8. Shopping (groceries)

8 things I say often:
1. Serious!!
2. Ye ke?
3. Abang..
4. Tak Kisah laaa..
5. Cool!
6. Alrite.
7. Ok
8. So?

This 8 books I’ve read recently:
1. The Manny
2. The Secret
3. Further Under The Duvet
4. The Power of Now
5. Past Secret
6. Ladies Who Lunch
7. Some recipe books
8. dunno la.. cant remember!

8 things to do before I die:
1. Haj
2. Wear Tudung
3. Have Kids
4. Sky Dive
5. Bungee Jump
6. Becomes a Millionaire
7. Live in New Zealand
8. Own A Successful Business

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1. Superwoman
2. I Will Survive
3. Whats Love Gotta Do
4. Yellow Polka Dot Bikini
5. I Hate Myself For Loving You
6. Sad Movies
7. Anything by Colby
8. Anything by The Get Up Kids

8 things I learn in the last year:
1. What Goes Around Comes Around
2. Compromise, Compromise, Compromise
3. Money is not the most important thing, but it is important nonetheless
4. Family is extreamly important
5. House renovation is time and money consuming
6. House work is tiring
7. How to appologize properly
8. Friendship warms the heart

p/s: If you're reading and havent done this tag, you are tagged by me..

p/s2: Pics of the new home is coming soon!.. Promise!

Tata... Take care dudes and dudettes!

:: Thank God For Bookstreams! ::

I am addicted to books.. I need to read something at least once everyday, but I think newspapers are too depressing. So I used to buy at least 4 books every month because in average, I read one book every week. And as you know, books can be so expensive sometimes. I used to spend hundreds of ringgit a month for books. (I know its tax-deductable.. but I dont keep receipts, so..). Thats until about 3 or 4 months ago when Abang told me about this great amazing place called Bookstreams in Amcorp Mall. Its located on the 3rd floor, just above popular bookstore (ironic huh?)

Whats interesting about this shop is the fact that they sell new books for real cheap prices. I dont know how they manage to, and i'm not planning to investigate, i'm just embracing it. And I'm talking about real good quality books, not the lousy no-one-wants-to-buy books. Ranging fron fictions to hobbies to sci-fis to romance to children books to autobiographies.

Yesterday, when I was waiting for my client I dropped by the said bookstore and was planning to buy one book for me to kill the time. But because the prices wes rediculously cheap, I ended up buying 4 books. Guess how much I spent? RM 29.80! Doploh sembilan ringgit lapan puloh sen!!! for four books! four! empat! papat! cuatro! porfavor!! Arrgghh!! mi loco!

Anyway, one of the books that I bought was The Manny by Holly Peterson. I've been wanting to read it since forever. I saw it there and of course I had to buy it. It was only RM9.90! On the way down, I went into popular bookstore (i couldnt help it) to check the price.. They sold it for RM40 there. I mean, RM40 is kinda cheap for that kind of book but if u can save a bit, why the hell not?

So, for those who have been there, good for you.. and for those who haven't, just give it a shot. Its worth it. (And no, I am not the co-owner nor did I get any royalties for promoting the shop.. I just think that reading is great habit, everyone should read and this kind of amazing positive news should be shared with the world.. didn't they say sharing is caring?)

Oh by the way, the salesgirl told me that they'll have a new batch of new books coming early of march. I guess I'll be going again early of march.

Take care peeps!

YO YO YO!!!!

Hi peeps!!


Long time no see!! Its bee so so long since my last post huh?


Anyway, as most of u know, I've been extreamly busy with the new home and all.. However, I'm happy to say that we're all settled down now and the crib is gorgeous!! (hahaha.. its my home.. so i think i'm entitled for my own opinion..).


The only thing lacking is an internet connection. I know.. that sux!
Anyway, gotta go.. catch up with you all later!! take care gorgeous people..(take care to those who are not so gorgeous too.. hehe)


p/s: our house warming is coming soon.. but i'm seriously condering pot-luck la.. what dayya think?

:: Me? Superhero? ::

Your Superpower Should Be Mind Reading

You are brilliant, insightful, and intuitive. You understand people better than they would like to be understood. Highly sensitive, you are good at putting together seemingly irrelevant details. You figure out what's going on before anyone knows that anything is going on! Why you would be a good superhero: You don't care what people think, and you'd do whatever needed to be done Your biggest problem as a superhero: Feeling even more isolated than you do now

What Should Your Superpower Be?